just now i cleanup my brother room's..
then, i saw a small cute book with green color..
i open up it..
and saw the writing..

he wrote..
saya sayang adik saya..
adik lyn n adik adib,,
hrmm...
i love u too abg pyan..
nobody in this world can be a great brother like you..
i love you so much..
may allah bless you..
amin :)

Movie that i waited so long ^_^

wow..today i feel so great watching tv at home..
because of what??
i watch movies that i waited so long..
It was Dear John...

i couldn't xplain how am happy watching it..
because i bought and i read the books a couple of month ago..
truely i said..it was the best novel that i couldnt forget..
i do really love and enjoyed reading it..

really touch my heart..
touch my feel..
touch my mind..
and the best part..
it's successfully make me tears..
huh..

i keep on searching this story in the internet..
but couldnt find the online one..

until i decide that i want to buy the cd..
but oso couldnt find..
hrmm..

at last..
i can watch it in HBO..
what a good holiday lynn :)

still same..
it same exactly as per novel..
i didn't regret any small of part in the movie at all..
same like what i'd read..

Savannah Lynn Curtis & John Tyree..
really make me feel indeed..
Love this story for all of my life..

DEAR JOHN...

almost end of da year....

Again..
but.. fell sooo fast..
feel like i just wrote about last year's entry..
hrm..
this time i do really feel time flow like a river..
i couldn't feel a rest at all..
what i did.. ??
lot's n i cannot stop even a while or a second..
cuz.. i want to run for a time..
it's run so fast..
till now.. i still cannot reach it.

when i was a kid..my time's was so slow..
i couldn't be patient to grow up and become a career women..
but now??.. i miss my childhood time..
it was great..
a real great time i ever had in my life..
fully with colours..
smiling, crying, loughing and lot's of feeling that couldn't make me feel even a tiny of boring..
i'm enjoying my life..

Now...
a lot's of things to think..
specially about future to arrange..
even i don't know what will come..
but i still want to arrange..

a lot's of things that make me feel dizzy..
work..
study..
freinds..
enviroment..
surrounding me...

lot's of things to take care..
specially other people heart..
why always me have to think about them..?
i'm truely tired ..
sometime hate n giveup..
but..
what was my heart made with..
it's so soft..
it couldn't be strong like a steel..
i'm trying.. but it can't..

at the end..
i found no way to handle a thing..
no way to facing with the problems...
no way to explain about what am i feel so annoying..
no way to make people understand..
no way to decide..
lastly...
theire hang.. just hang..
flow with the time goes...
but..seem's like easy make time change them..
actually it's not..
when it's han.. means.. it's heavy to hold..
really heavy..make my mind tired...
my soul giveup..
keeping on thinking about those problems...
hrmm....

trying to be an honest..
but doesn't want to hurt others..
than how??

means :     want to be honest
               + don't want to hurt others
               = hypocrete

that's it..
i'm a hypocrete just to take care of other people heart..

hrm.. why la the result so annoying ??
why i couldnt find any better results??
so sad of me :(

sunday..morning n blank..

i woke up early dis morning..
yesterday quite hard to sleep..
but i forced my eyes to close..
something running inside my mind..
it's like some feeling..
n some thinkin..
about my self..
my future was the main..
what will gonna happen to me?
let it be..............

well..
i'm workin today..
but today i have to wear baju kurung..
cuz after working hour, i'll go to wedding invitation of my BESTFRIEND..
another one getting her married already..
another one will coming on next year insyaallah ..
march..

as i had calculated..
she will joining the Puan group n left Miss group to others..
no more miss for the title ^_^
So miss group will decrease while Puan will increase..
last year i had jot down my friends list in this entry..
let me find first..

here they are :

my best fren until now is cik siti wan kembang heheh.. (cik siti shuhadha) a.k.a citot




miss nor etty -engagged



miss moon - boyfriend





miss reva



puan nor afni



puan mimi



puan maria



puan hazatulsheila



miss dura



Puan diyana - todays marriage




miss syuhid



miss dayah



puan intan



miss farah

These all da changes in 2011...........

next year who will change among us??
let's allah decide..
he's de all mighty..
i hope my life will facing with beautiful journey next year and after...
amin..

What is actually men's want??!!..

Sometime feel so afraid ..
so scared with their behave..
how can be like that..
sometime like got no iman in their life??
what is this all about..

Suddenly feel so scared..
having a men like that..
tempered..
cannot understand at all..
annoying..
huh..

Actually today i supposed to finish all my asignmnt
together with my fren..
she's my group partner..
but..something was happen..
if i were her..
i'll be shaking whole my body ..
why??
by listening to what her fincee yelling at her ..
so pity..
from what i observed.. she's actually a really brave gurl..
she's independent..
she's know.. what is gud n what is not..

but...
why this things happen to her??
she keep ask me how n how..
and her face look so afraid n sometime blank..
why can be like this..
another couple of week in this month she will gettin married..
but..from what i see..
if she ask me what shoud her do..
definitely my answer is cancell ur wedding!!
why?..bcoz it's frighten me..
how her fiancee can yelling at her like dat ??
it's totally not her false at all.. even it a bit..
how can he simply yellingg at her without considering what she want to tell?
he gave her no space to tell about what was she doing.. n why was she doing like dat..??
where is her space for telling her opinion??
why??..
why must guys always want to be a winner?
don't they have tolerance?
eventhough their the one who were wrong..
but still don't want to admit..
what the h.ll is this!!
i do really hate the guys that she'd spoke just now..

but what she can do now..
couple of days only she will be a loyal wife to that guy..
so scared..
i'm so scared actually..
she said to me my frighten cannot compare her right now..
she's blank..
mostly want to cancell da wedding..
but her mom..
she worried about her mum..
what will entire people say?

she really been in between..
either she suffer or her mum suffer n sad..
no way at all to choose..
if still got lot of time..
i think she might be have a lot of good decision to make..

but the most annoying thing is,
Once she gettin her home safely..
she called me and said..
"the guy's leave already..

she asked why??..
he said..cuz waitin so long??
really annoying..
and turn my blood goin up!!..
how pressure was dat..

when she at my room just now..
he keep on calling her almost 30 times..
she didn't pickup..
becouse she feel bashful if i'm listen to the guy's voice..
i heard already..
i heard he keeping shouting at her..
and unacceptable thing is he asked her to return home within 10 minutes..
how stupid!!
she just arrived.. and she's not doing anythin wrong
she just want doing our assignment together..
we want to setle them by today..
but what she get?
nothing?
she cannot give a little of attention at all
she worried until cannot think at all.
she worried bcoz the phone keep ringing n she never pickup..
what she'll get if pickup the phone..
only some bastard words n curse will turn up..
i do no how to help..
but i do really pity her..
she's look scared..

Hope allah will give both of them way to go..

it's not the first time i meet this cases ..
seldom but often happen among my frenz..

hope i will not meet the type of guys..
may allah bless me on finding an angel for my life..
may i awarding with good husband that strongly have a good iman..
and teach me to be a good muslimah and wife..
also good mother to my family..
insyaallah...

simply attach cuz BOWINK *_*

PelanGi...

Hari ni sabtu... tomorrow got clas..
this is the most miss momment that i do really want to see..
or can i say dat.. within this year..
This is the 1st time i saw rainbow nearest to my house..
how i miss this so much..

Pelangi nie..masa zaman skolah rendah jer aku rasa byk kali aku tgk..
masa tu msti panggil kawan2..
sumer nyer meriah tgk pelangi..
but tengok jer.. xboleh tunjuk :)
takut jari ilang.. huh..so funny..

just now i saw this rainbow while picking up my dad from his workshop..
while i'm driving..
i saw this rainbow..
i happily shoutin to my dad..
ayah..tgk pelangi!!
hahah...like a kids..
than i said..
masa kicik2 dlu takut nak tunjuk...
then dad laughing listening to my words

but i still didn't berani nak tunjuk pelangi tu with my finger..
i'm afraid of lost them hahahah..

actually i do also a bit afraid to snap pic of the rainbow..
once i accidenly snap..
than i think back..
is it ok??
will i be ok??
hahaha..
why la me...

naaa.. now i can keep this pic and keep look at it anytime i want ^_^

Tenangnyer tatka senja mendengar alunan azan maghrib
Langit Kelihatan masih cerah tapi hampir gelap
Warna kekuningan malap
Tatkala duduk bersendirian mcm ni..
Mengengar alunan - alunan azan bersahut-sahutan
antara satu ke satu surau
Terbayang ketika waktu kecil
Tempat tu di tasik shah alam
Ayah berjoging..... masa tu ayah kelihatan sangat sihat & cergas
Rindu bayangan lalu
Bila azan mula bersahut..
Kami sekeluarga pulang kerumah
Ikan - ikan di tasik pun seakan faham dan duduk diam-diam di tempat paling dalam..
dah malam kot....
dah kenyang dgn roti
Takderlah berenang2 lagi bagi menampakkan kelibatnya di permukaan air..
7:11 mlm..
Khamis

Aku nak gelarkan ini coretan ikhlas..
apa yang aku tulis di atas serpihan kertas tadi tatkala senja..
inilah hasilnyer..
this is sincerely what i did imagine dat time..
The words..totally out...
But this is what i copy paste exactly wht i wrote..
u can see the different Lyn :)