a call

tadi aku dapat call dr someone..yg aku actually ader hati dkt dia..
hati aku tertarik dgn kbaikan dan kesopanan dan yg penting agamanya..
mmg aku salute..
he's the only men that can make me admire so much..
he is religious..
that what make me feel respect on him..

alhamdulillah..
he telling me the truth..so that i no more put in any hope agains him anymore..
from today's..
i no more imagine him in my prayers..
he already became somebody fiancee..

allah is true..
orang yg baik msti untuk org yg baik..
and he found someone..
n i know.. the girl must be very kind n religious like him..
i can't compare with her..

quite hurt..
but i have to accept..
again..
i'm hurt again..
n my tears
running a bit on my cheeks
bcoz i do like him..
but i'm afraid to tell dat..
again..
bcoz of my unconfident, it just gone..

my opportunity is actually have..
he told me dat he oso has a feeling on me..
n i know from da start we had met..
the way he brought himself infront of me..
i know he oso have a feelin in me..

he did asked..
am i happy he will get married???..
what should i say?..tell him da truth???
nope..i'm dissappointed!..
should i say dat?,,
it can't..
i can't make pple that i love feeling serba salah..

if i'm bad..i will surely will say dat..
say dat actually i love him..from da start..but afraid to tell..
should i?..
kalau ikutkan perasaan..mmg la akan..
tapi pemikiran tu penting..
think before u do..
wht if my word could ruin his r/ship with his fiancee???
i will having sin along my life..
the main think..bfore i decide something..
it's good,. but sometime it worst.. like now..
bcoz i'm think too much..
n too long..
i'd let go something important..

no wonder he said dat he want to tellin me bout smthing..
it is about this..

i rmember his words just now..
he said: "sy nak tnyer smthing.. Lin gembira ke sy nak kwen?..
n da stupid word dat i said was.. "yer.. sy gembira...jodoh awak dah smpi"..
n my heart said.. i can't belive dat i pull out the sentence..!!
n he said:'but sy sedih"..
i didn't ask y eventhough i want..
but what for..too late..

eventhough he said dat he love me..
i don't think it is a realy love..
it might kind of small feeling such as "like"..
not in heart feelin..
i believe dat..

so i just told him..
nvermind la.. kalau jodoh dah tertulis.. itulah jodoh kita..x kiralah..kita suker saperpun..
allah dah tetapkan..
itulah kehidupan...
jodoh itu ditangan tuhan..

than he said..
"yerlah lin..
sy doakan lin jmper org yang baik dan solleh..utk dijadikan suami..
alhamdulillah..
terima cikgu Fairuz:)

Semoga cikgu jugak berbahagia ke akhir hayat..

so until here only la we chat..
i don't think we can msg or calling each other again..
other pple heart have to takecare..
let me fixing my own heart..
may i can find someone like u again.. x tinggal solat, pekerti mulia, sopan santun,  anak yang solih dan bertanggunggjawab..
amin..:)


 

alhamdulillah

Sesunguhnya..xder apa yang dapat menyembuhkan jiwa yg ksong..
selain berdoa dan berzikir kepada allah..
alhamdulillah aku masih sedar..
masih kukuh iman sebagai seorg khalifah allah..

rasa boring dan kosong yang aku rasa hari ini..
terubat..
sekejap jer..
dgn mengaji lepas menunaikan solat asar tadi..

hrmm..bila tgk balik al-quran..
lama sungguh x mengaji..
almost 3 weeks..
aperlah nak jadi..
lalai or buzy?..

klau nak diikutkan..
bulan Ramadhan lepas aku boleh khatamkan quran ni..
tapi x tau kenapa..
mungkin terlalu ikutkan hati yang malas..
smpi skrg pun belum settle lagi..

hari ni..br smpi surah al muzammil..
mmg almost nak habis dah..
tinggal surah2 pendek jer..
dah dijadikan seorg wanita..
lumrahla.. kalau terpaksa miss kan certain2 hari..
apatah lagi kalau termasuk hari malas..
hah..

masa tgh mengaji tadi..
tetiber..cahaya matahari petang menyinari page yang aku baca..
tetiber rasa mcm sengaja disuluh pulak oleh matahari ni..heheh
tenangnyer hati..

ya allah.. semoga aku dijadikan seorg wanita yang solehah..
yg beriman kuat kepadamu..
ubahkanlah aku menjadi wanita yang dirahmati dalam kehidupan..
cekalkan dan kuatkan imanku untuk menjadi muslimah yang baik..

aku sedang cuba berubah..
semoga beroleh bimbingan dari mu ya allah..
aminn..

 

i would like to tell about someone..

alhamdulillah..
dalam ramai2 kawan.. ader seorg insan ni..
aku rasa sangat la menyentuh hati aku..
agak2..dia tau x aku citer pasal dia..

lama dah aku nak tulis pasal this Polite Guy..
he is very nice to me..
dari ramai2 kawan lelaki..
his the best i ever had..
walaupun x pernah jumper..

kenapa??..
hrmm.. sbb..wlaupun aku ada secara x sengaja menyakitkan hati dia..
dia tetap juga baik dgn aku..
aku suker berkawan dgn dia..
tp dia x nak kawan dgn aku..
pelik..

tapi setiap kali aku online..
satu jer yg aku nak tgk actually..
msg FB..
wlupun byk msg yg masuk..
tapi aku ttp nak carik msg dia..
kalau xder..
aku akan repeat dgr lagu2 yg dia send kat msg aku..
the most thing is..
all those songs..i do love so much..
until i kept them in my thumpdrive n listen along my journey while driving
he knows my types..
betul2 buat hati aku tersentuh..

his a nice guy..
n i pray the best for him..
i will alwayz look for ur msg MR.AZAR..
until u will give up to send me any..

thanks a lot cuz always make me feel happy n smile alone :)

ShoPPing..

assalamualaikum..
well...
yesterday was a bit ok..
i went out to Setia City Mall.. in meru..
ingt nak tgk wayang jer..
tapi citer x best plak..
merepek2 jer citer skrg.. boring..

so. me n my fren Reva.. just looking fo what we aimed..
i'm going to buy heel for office..
but.................
mmg dapat kasut office.. tp dapat kasut lain jugak aiyooo..
terbang la..money den.. hrrmmm..
selesaii..

then..round punyer round..
p tempat handbag..
nampak satu beg yang to me..cantik jugak...
but the kaler dia suite dgn my mum..
teringat pulak handbag mama yg aku belikan dulu..
rasanya dah 2 tahun kot dia pki handbag tu..
so.. aku belila yg baru ni utk dia..
mmg cantik.. just nice for her..
n like i guess.. she really happy looked at da handbag i bought..
alhamdulillah..

sbb..bila aku fikir balik..
aku jarang sangat shopping..
bila dapat gaji.. just beli brg simple2 for myself..
mmg aku teringin nak beli something for my mum everytime i got my salary..
tapi jarang keluar..jarang shopping kat mall..
how i want to buy??..
so semalam..dapat jugak belikan utk mama..
feel so good..

so after shopping..
i went to fish manhattan's for lunch eventhough waktu tu dah ptg..
sbb belum mkn tgh hari kan..
my fren plak x mkn ayam..so.. p mkn kat sini ajer la..
actually.. the foods. not so nice.. nama ajer gah..
2 time i come.. 2-2 kali x der yg special..
nothing..
to the price n the foods not balance..
well.. meybe bcoz it's a high class place..
so simply can cook like that..
enough for that..

so dalam masa yg sama..
aku invite jugak sorg kawan yg aku kenal..
before ni just msging jer gner fon..
alang2 dia dah turun klang.. so meet skali la..
he is mR.Rizal..
dia ni seorg army officer kat kem sg besi..
org kedah..
so sbb smlm dia pun rasa boring mcm aku..
aku invite la dia join makan sesamer..
tapi dia x mkn pulak.. sbb baru pas mkn kat umah..
hah.. tengok ajer kitorg mkn..
but i buy him drinks la..
atlease something..
so we chat lorr..
not so much to talk about..
we do no each other very close..
so our conversation not so open..
beradab sikit lor..

i really love dialect org kedah..
to me.. it seem like org kedah ni really straight..
when they talk.. they won't pretend..
like him..when he talk.. he just talk..
no need to cover..or trying to arrange sentence or something..
he can captured n joining up about what we were talking about..
really relax..
so it really fluence.. n nice hear the dialect...

after eat n chat quit sometime..
so end there lor..
my fren Rizal.. going back to his home..
me n my fren oso balim rumah..
so i have to send her to her home..

BUT...WHILE WE WERE VERY HAPPY..
I GOT A SUPRISE GIFT..

SAMAN...WTH...
huh... well.. bayar jer la..
police ni mmg carik pasal..
it's ok if he want to saman..
but the way dia saman mmg x proper..
arh.. lantak lah.. malas nak citer panjang..
bukan nyer dapat aper pun/..
so.. next week monday.. kne meet someone yg kje polis lor..
nak p byr saman...

xperla.. dah nak kne kan..:)
 

Sireh.....

Morning...
Well... Alhamdulillah semalam jamuan mkn2 den kwn2 ofis n best frenz berjalan dgn lancar.
Mane x nyer last minit plan..
 Bukan aper.. Smlm masa tgh attend class tuisyen.. Tefikir plak pastu nnti nak buat aper?
so.. Alang2 dok boring..bek ajak frenz2 dtg umah..bila lagi..raya pun nak penghujung...
X rmi pun jemput..yg paling close n yg mmg plan nak dtg umah dr dulu...
So. Aku msg la sume...
Dlm 100% Aku msg tu..almost 70% coming.. Alhamdulillah..
Thanks to my mum..preparing all those foods.. Meehun sup n mee goreng..
Very delicious..
I thought want to serve something special during dat day..to x smpt nak buat... Sbb smpt umah dah kul 5.30pm..

Tgh hari Pas tuisyen tu ayah n mama ajak p umah org kwen.. Umah kakak Angkat Aku masa kicik2 dulu..
Ale2..nak dkt smpi tetiber rasa pelik...
Baru
kul 2.59pm.
Tp, khemah sumer Dah kemas.. Kusi dah Susun tinggi2..time tu la br mama ingt..
Eh ari Ni 8hb.. Esok br wedding tu...
Aiyooo...bikin stress.

Hah..alang2 dah smpi shah alam tu..p la pusing umah makusu Aku...beraya..
Pastu singgah plak Padang jawa umah sdara ayah n mama..
Ale2... Dah smpi kul 4.40pm...
Hah...satu aper pun xprepare utk member2Aku dtg...
Singgah kedai beli mcm2..dah smpi kul 5.30pm..
Seb baik xdgr sorg pun dtg lg...heheheh

Sampan umah..siap2 buat air sume.. Baru la kak Shida n family...
Diikuti dgn budak2 runner bank n da geng
After dat..Maghrib...pastu br la tetamu lain dtg..termasuk my beloved fren n her husband..
Alhamdulillah..Sumer pun step by step..
Mknn pun cukup...

Hmm..bags jugak planning Mcm Ni..
Sekejap n senang...
Kul 11pm tepat..settle sume tetamu...kak zai n family..:)

Hah..alhamdulillah.....
Well..pg Ni...kemas umah..
Cuci Bju n balik kg...
Wan x brp sihat..
Nak p Melaka jenguk sat....

Eh..luper plak..lari tajuk upernyer..
Pasal Sireh kan....????
Haha.. Next time la..
Nak settle kje sat..
Adiosss....