huh..sangat laparrrrrrrr

huhu..
mcm maner nie..??
sgt lapa..tapi....
 petang tadi.. maybe mama kcik ati kat aku...
sbb..
aku x ikot ckp mama..

huh..xfaham la..
knaper msti ikut ckp org lain kalau hati aku x nak..
aku x rasa benda tu penting..
lagipun mmg aku tgh xder mood nak turun n facing dgn many pple kat tesco tu nnti..

kalau aku cakap lbeh..
nnti org ingt aku kurang ajar pulak..

tu yg aku pelik..cepat betul org judge other pple by only one slight..
i couldnt understand..
especially my family..

sometime i feel so frustrated with them..
they treat me like a small kids..

i'm no more small..
i'm almost 28..
y i have to be guarded as a school kids..
i'm working already..

i know what i want..
please stop instruct me such like i don't know on how to make a decision..
sometime i felt so silly..

such just now..
my parent fetch me at my office..
my father drove my car..
but he accidently terlangar tepi motor..
so..my new car got scratch already..
i feel so sad,,
but i just silent..
cuz..of coz he doesn't realize bout the motorbike...
but,,the car is mine..
who knows about my feel dat time..??

then. once we reach tesco.. my mum ask me to folo ayah to buy things..
but i really tired dat time..
somemore have no mood cuz today's workin..
i refuse ..
but she force me to go..meanwhile ayah already move out from the car without saying anything..
he walks so fast seem's like he never care whether i want to folo him or not..
so i  just keep stays at my place...sitting quietly..
suddenly my mum took off her seat belt and move out without saying anything to me..

by the time i felt so guilty..
i feel so horrible cuz made my parents feel so dissappointed with my attitude..
but truely i said..
i'm so tired..
and starving some more cuz i haven't eat anythin since morning
cuz worrying bout my problem at workplace yesterday..
i lost quit big amount of money..
how i want to pay??
do they understand me..

sometime i feel why always me want to understand pple..
but they will never n tryin to understand me??
am i so annoying to them??
what there always do are blame on me..
i always do wrong..!!
i'm hurt inside ..
but i always acting like slumber ..
eventhought i feel like i want to cry..
so they always saids i'm stubborn..
am i??

sometime i don't understand how is pple doing with their life..
r there different from me..
am i different from other pple??

huh..atlast.. i'm here on my bed since balik dr tesco tadi..
lepas solat..
mengaji..
isyak..
and now lying with laptop..
with the stomach feel of starving..

i don't want to make pple lost mood looking at me.
maybe my mum is watching tv rite now..

i don't want to make her mood spoil..
so tomorow only eat la..
now i want to sleep...

so tired of problem..