alhamdulillah..
today settle up my solat isyak awal..huhu...
so i can write my story until morning .. mcm la panjang sgt cite ni..

by da way..
let's start da part dat i wish to continue last..last..last.. day:)

huh..
well.. bcoz of i think da safe of my parent journey going n come back from malacca..
so i decided.. i want to folo..
my hearth actually..being apart..
part say..folo..
other part says.. nope..
but i do worried of both..
my parent journey..
n my grandmother heart..
she will feel so sad if i'm come late..

so i have to decide.
than i choose.. o to malacca with my parent..
i'm afraid if ayah drive alone at nite..
he must be tired..

than it's true..
he really tired..
we moved out from kg around 10pm..
not yet half way..
my dad need my assist to drive..
cuz he felt sleepy..

so we change lorr..
i drive.. he sleep... so pity my dad..
he so tired dat time..
but he bought me some junk fruits.. to eat..
i ate tembikai..
at lease.. xder la ngantok..

but actually..
that nite.. i was ngntuk...
feel like i really cannot tahan .
feel like want to stop at side of da highway..
luckily got something to chew..
so it hold me a bit from feel sleepy..

i turn back..
i saw my father sleeping..
look's he was in tired..
my mom oso..sleep..

alhamdulillah.. we reach home safely..
i really cannot tahan..
i change my cloth...
than.. sleep..
huh.what a feel...:)

morning..i prepared to go to KL..
visiting my grandma..
i know smthing is not rite..
cuz.. once i reach.
i saw her door.. was close..
she never close door on daytime..
cuz she said.. nnti rezeki x msuk..

from there..
i know already..
my grandma is merajuk oready..
she don't want to open da door to let me in..
but my uncle saw me n open it..

i saw her sitting in da kitchen..silently..
she don't want to make any conversation with me..
she said..
i'm lying on her..
huh...
huhu..

i know it's my false..
but..da times really cannot adjust..
huhu..

let me short da story..
less than 5 mnts..
she ask me to go..
she really angry..

actually i don't want to go..
but i don't want to argue oso..
cuz she got high blood pressure..
i don't want bcoz of me.. her blood will going up pressurely..
i don't want she to be sick..

then i go la..
it's really hurt once i take all my things to go..
really don't want to leave her..
cuz i know.. she's not mean it actually..
but i have to..
to let her cool down..
i'm sad.. to tally sad..
my tears actually feel like cannot cntrol out already..

i prepared.. n take a deep breath bfore going..
luckily i can..
even..my chest actually feel like something stuck on it..
i try to let it cool..
i though want to drive my car go straigh home n cry as much as i can..
cuz nobody can see me inside :)

than i change my mind..
better i go my maklong house nearest there..
can have someone to talk..
i oso quit long didn't meet my maklong's n family..

so i go lor...
that's all..

but until now..
i still miss my grandma voice..
i want to call her.. but i will feel really down if she don't want to answer me..
better be silent than my feeling hurt isn't it..
that's lynn :)