Hope everything will be fine n smooth..

Well..esok i mean consider hari ni 02/11/2012 la yer sbb dah kul 12.13am.. abg aku akad nikah..
alhamdulillah jodoh dah sampai..
i'm so happy with him..
but i feel offended..
cuz.. i didn't get leave to see the big ceremony on da day cuz i'm on training..
what a bad feeling n unlucky day..

i'm not pity @ my self..
but i'm sure my brother will be dissapointed with that..
cuz, just now when i told him dat i couldn't come tgether..
he said why?..his not angry..
but while i'm talking with him..his actually on call..
eventhough his smile.. i can feel he so sad..but don't want to show it..
if i put myself in his shoes..i oso will feel down ..
y??.. bcoz, we don't have big family.. where got many of sibblings dat can accompany or substitute each other when someone canot make it to come..
cuz i'm the only sister dat he has.. we are very closed since kids..
n we sharing our problem tgether..
but y on this big day.. i'm not in..???
n the harsh think is..
i feel i want to quit if i can't get this leave..
from da last monday i kept on thinking bout this..
thinking bout how i want to apply for leave in dis situation whre i just start my new work..??
how??..is it possible to get leave??

i tried to call n ask my boss..
eventhough his seem's like cool,
but he can't release me for that, cuz of the management..
he felt sorry for me n said, if he can, he will try to release me..
but he oso been tied up with the mngment rule..
he can do nothing..
i oso shouldn't ask for dat actually..
cuz i know, upon training.. we not allowed to leave or miss unless if there are some emergncy things happen...

than, yesterday, i told my parent..i might not come on abg pyan nikah day's bcoz of this training..
my parent gave a positive reply..
they said.. i shouldn't worry n keep said to me dat i no need to worry..just focus to my work.. they can handle it..
what to do.. i'm not self employed..work under pple.. have to follow da rule..
i feel so glad n praise to allah cuz having an understanding parent..
some more they support me to focus on my training..
alhamdulillah..
once they said dat,, it's just like a big stone in my head had falling down n my head feel so light..

n now.. how i want to meet my brother n said i'm sorry for this..
sorry for couldn't come for his nikah day..
tomorrow, early in da morning i will go bangi..
i should see n talk to him tonite..
but i'm scared if i will cry hrrmmmm.

nvermine, i will knock his room this morning...
salam..n wish him all da best..
n if can finish early.. i will rush to come..
cuz his time is after asar..
n i heard my class tomorrow might finish early at 4pm.
so for sure i will come eventhough i can't see the akad nikah time's..

huh.. suddenly feel, my family gonna be change..
normally with 5 mmbers, now additional 1 mmber..
huh.. my brother will become a husband..
abg yg menjadi sahabat paling rapat ..
abg yg paling aku sayang..
kdg2 gaduh..
bergurau mcm budak kcik eventhough dah besar mcm ni..
abg yg banyak bantu n nasihat aku,..
yg penting, dia adalah abg yg paling penyayang, yang paling tegas menjaga akhlak aku supaya menjadi seorg perempuan yg dihormati.
Yg paling banyak
paling byk bertolak ansur dgn perangai aku ..
mcm2.. he is da best abg that i ever had in dis world..!!!!
thank you allah for ur gift..
alhamdulillah..

semoga sumernyer berjalan dgn baik dan diredhai allah..
hanya doa yg x putus2 utk kedua mempelai yg dapat aku bagi untuk abg aku n bakal kakak ipar.
hanya allah shj yg tahu betapa x tenteramnya hati aku saat ini..
serba salah n sedih sbb x dapat nak join..
x dapat nak angkat barang hantaran sesama..
x dapat nak pakai n hiaskan baju n tudung mama..
mama kne adjust n pakai kerongsang sendiri mcm aku ajar tadi..
sedihnya x dapat nak tolong....

dah lah..
nnti ternangis pulak aku kat cnie..
cukup lyn..
hope tomorrow all be fine n good..
semoga segalanya diredhai, dipermudahkan dan dipelihara allah s.w.t..
amin...