baiklah..
mulai saat ini..
xder lg dia dlm hidup aku..
aku percaya dgn pilihan parent..

i know u can lynn..
chayokkk!!!!!!!
don't let ur self sad bcoz of guy who can't love u..
dat

ya allah...
tabahkan hati ku ya allah..
aku sangat merinduinya..

perasaan ini...
sangat sakit...........

kuatkan lah imanku ya allah.....
semoga aku mampu menerima insan lain
selain darinya........

bantu lah aku ya allah......
sesungguhnya hati ini sangat lemah...
seluruh hati aku hanya ada dia

Kalau dia bukan milikku..
hindarkan dia dari pemikiranku..
jauhkanlah dia..
berikanlah aku kekuatan utk melupakan dia.......
lepaskan ingatan aku darinya

 

2 hari

25/12/12-26/12/12

2 hari yg menggembirakan..dan menyedihkan..........
x sangka perkara ni terjadi dlm diri aku..
peliknya..
mcm novel pulak..
aku ker yg create?

hrmm..
aku br pas balik mkn malam dgn ofis mate..
seronok sangat rasa..
apatah lg bila DIA bersama..
terasa mcm aper yg aku harapkan selama ni..
bahagia nya.......sangat bahagia..

semalam lagi seronok..
lgi bahagia...........
bila masa tu seolah2 utk kami..
kami........................                            

DIA bermaksud............................
wlupun x smpi sebulan aku knal dia,
tapi dia lah satu2 nyer lelaki yg berjaya buat aku jatuh hati,
dan secara officially nya,.
aku percaya cinta itu wujud selama aku hidup 28 tahun..
inilah pertama kali aku rasa CINTA..

pertama kali aku merasakan betapa nikmatnya disayangi dgn org yg aku syg..
xpernah aku rasa mcm nie..
sbb org tu x pernah wujud..

skrg aku percaya,
cinta antara 2 insan yg saling mencintai mmg wujud..
aku bahagia semalam..
sangat sangat bahagia..

wlupun aku tau kami xkan kemana..
krn pelbagai cabaran yg x mampu kami tempuh..
xkan mmpu..
banyak halangan dan cabaran..
xmmpu untuk hidup berdua..
x mungkin terjadi..

sayang..rasa tu hanya bertahan sekejap.............
masa yg diberi sangat suntuk..
sangat2 suntuk..

kenapa?..
bila aku dah jmper..
masa pula x mengizinkan..
bila x..
terlalu banyak masa smpi aku boring..
sekarang, mmg aku xnak miss wlu sesaat pun dgn dia..

aku sayangkan dia sangat..
teramat..

tapi allah tu maha menyayangi n mengasihi..
jodoh telah ditentukan...
bukan dgn dia........................

aku dirisik tadi...........
org yg aku x kenal..
hanya parent kami saling mengenali............

perkara ni mmbuatkan aku kaku,...
x terkata.....................
mama n ayah perlukan jawapan.........
dlm masa yg sama.. seolah2 mmg berharap aku terima

Tak sampai hati rasanya nak tolak keinginan mama n ayah..
mmg aku x kan tolak..
x mungkin aku tolak..

mungkin aku bg jawapan hari ni..
walaupun hati aku menyayangi org lain..

hrmm.. u appear too late in my life.
somemore at this time..
n younger than me so..so..far..
it's look like ridiculous dat u r my partner in life..
but like people said,
CINTA ITU BUTA..
dat is what i feel now..

but my heart love him..

as a closing,

i feel so happy once i be with him..
i feel so sad.. da time given is too short,
my parent like someone else..

n i never been given any chance or time,
to said i love someone else..
I LOVE OTHER GUY..

Ya ALLAH,
Jika dia benar jodohku,
dekatkan lah hati nya dgn hatiku,
Jika dia bukan milikku,
Tabahkanlah hati ku dgn ketentuanmu..........

amin ya rabbal a'lamin..........

 

Al-Quran penenang jiwa..

Alhamdulillah syukur kerana aku menjadi insan yg boleh mengaji..
alhamdulillah syukur memperoleh mama n ayah yang menghantar aku clas ngaji n sekolah agama masa kecik2 dlu..
tengok skrg, anak mama n ayah ni.. x luper n x kekok mngaji quran..
syukur alhamdulillah..

xdinafikan, betapa ruginya insan yg x menggunakan ilmu yang allah kurniakan..
Dari dulu lagi.. mmg al-quran yg memainkan peranan ketika hati dan iman ku goyah dgn dunawi
ketika masalah dtg menimpa.. sehingga aku tertekan, hanya quran yg menjadi penghibur..
tenang rasa slps mengaji

aku bukannya baik n pandai pun dalam selok belok al-quran..
mmg rugi rasa tatkala mengaji tapi x tau makna..

aku cuba jugak mengaji tafsir, tapi sayang., tulisannya sgt kecik.. n baris tajwidnya mmg aku x yakin sbb dah di shrink kan.
so.. al-quran lama ni lah yg selalu berada disisi katil..
pendinding hati dan diri...

Semoga diriku sentiasa dilimpahi dgn keimanan n ketaqwaan..
 amin.. lindungilah diriku ya allah dari segala kotor dunia..
amin...

 

it doesn't matter..wht pple want to say

This is me..
i'm who i am..
people can judge me whatever they like..
i can't control them..
they have their rite..
they have their own mind..
so dat.. it doesn't matter whatever i did..
i know someone will observe it..
and automatically will judge it...

hah.. it's life..
don't be hypocrite..
no one can care u as good as ur self..
let u be u..
god give u feel n heart..
u r normal people who can feel love n to be love..
u r da one who can make a decision bout ur life..
who u like, what u want ..
don't bother to thinks bout other people around u..
they have their own life oso..
they oso have a feeling like u sometime..
the time only just differed..

so..
don't blame urself for others..!!
bcoz, u only waste ur time thinking about what people feelin on u..
n bcoz of dat..
u had to control ur self aka hypocrite..
it's not ur self actually..
u r acting as someone else..
at last.. u will feel dat tired cuz u r live on pretending..

let's free ur life n mind..
cuz u only live once..
try whatever u think good n make ur life happy..
do not limit it..
let's give wht u heart want..
don't stop it bcoz of someone else..
ur life is ur life..
the result will showing once we did..
let's see,.. what is da result..
n dat, we'll learn new things..
AM I CORRECT?..

i'm tired of caring other pple heart, but at last i get nothing..
why don't i do wht my heart want..
let it choose wht it want..
who it want..
i want it to be free..
pity my heart cuz alwayz stuck each time when it love someone..
now.. i want to let it be.
let it be..
n let it be..



sincerely : i changed now..
22/12/12
 

why is it happen to me?

should i ask dat??..
am i wrong??
what should i do?
why..why..why?..

i don't understand..
i don't even know how to explain..
am i damn cruel..
hurtin people..
let people hurt bcoz of me..
i don't mean dat..

ya allah.. show me the way..
so dat i can have a real feel on someone..

not even me..
but other side oso feel like wht i feel on him..
Please..
i do tired of this..
i do tired ..
tired..

i'm stuck in da way dat i created..
i'm lost?.. or.. i over walk n explore?

 

Owh hati

Owh Hati,
kenapa susah sangat utk ko lafazkan perasaan tu?
kenapa perlu pendam??

hah..sukarnya............. :(

Tapi mcm x logic pulak kalau aku luahkan..
x berbaloi..
x kemana..
owh tidak..

kenapa perasaan ni berulang??
xsuker..x suker..
siksa rasa menahan luahan......

luperkan lah..
esok mulakan hari yg baru
dia pun x perasan kamu..
knaper nak tunggu buah yg x kan gugur?
hanya menyiksa diri..
menyiksa hati..
menyiksa perasaan

sbb perasaan itu, hanya kamu sendiri yang rasa
sedangkan dia.. dgn dunianya..
x berbaloi lin..

luperkan..
anggaplah seperti awal perkenalan dlu.
xder aper yg tersirat n tersurat..
kamu adalah kamu n dia adalah dia..
xperlu mengikut rentak hati..
gunakan akal fikiran yg waras..
bahawasanya.. ia nya x berbaloi..
bertepuk sebelah tangan x kan berbunyi..
tapi bunyik jugak klu tepuk kat PP ke..dahi ker..peha ker..
arhh.. xperla..
yang penting kamu tersedar awal..
sebelum perasaan menghanyutkan kamu..

terima kasih allah atas kesedaran n ketabahan..
mulakan hari yg baru dengan ceria esok..
anggaplah kamu tidak knal dia n tidak suka dia langsung..
biarlah dia dgn dunuanya, dan kamu dgn duniamu..


 

Jika Aku Jatuh Hati

121212

assalamualaikum,
well.. lama sudah aku x menaip..
kesian diary nie keseorangan :)..org ker??..hrmm

Banyak sebenrnyer story nak tell,
tp x terluah dek kerja yg melampai batas..
akan ku gagahkan jua.. wlupun rasa sometime mcm gve up..
but no way.. i just need my focus..
dat's Lynn :)

Orait.. so around da corner will come new yr soon..
n 2day after it, my new yr oso come.. insyaallah..
n i become 29..
is it old??.. nope..not yet..
i still got lot of things to achieve..
will i get it?.. only Allah knows..

Alahmdulillah,
it's already a month n a day of my brothers wedding..
all done excellent..
alhamdulillah..
n i already have a sister in law..

then, i run my new Job..
as a marketer in RHB bank..
i love my job ..
quit nice meeting people..
n all my clicks are very friendly n nice oso..
alhamdulillah..

and today oso..
is my 1st task..
handling over marketing part to westport..
together with my sales exec..
n there were so cute n nice:)
and.. i feel so wierd,..
normally before this, i'm the youngest..
n alwayz follow da seniors..
but now..
i'm da elders..
n as a leader..
i have to arrange things..
hrmm.. quit good n nice oso..
becoz of my clicks i think..

i love my new job..
hope i can have a good time here..
may allah bless me..
aminn
 

apakah perasaan anda bila orang approach nak masuk meminang ..??

21212 - ahad.. 6.39pm- shah alam

ermm...
hishh..xtau nak ckp cmner..
sepanjang perjalanan balik mmg lutut ketakk..
sebab ayat tu ker..

nope.. he just kidding..
i can't believe he's serious..

but he's serious...
i can't answer when he ask..
should i accept?
i do no him well...
but if i refuse..
am i still have a chance??

if i ask my mom but this..
trust me she said YES..

n if i tell my mom,
that guy want to meet her n my dad..
definitely she welcome..

but how about my heart..??
i should think in deep..

is not dat bcoz u afraid u'll become 29, so u just accept..
nope.. please don't say yes just bcoz of dat..

will he love me..?
will he take care of me??
will he bacome a good husband..
will he become someone who can lead me to allah?..
dat's what i look..

i don't see he got dat line 4..
so..will i teach him??
if yes.. so i will lead him..
he suppose to lead me..
is it wrong if wife lead her husband knowing n close to allah?

confuse..
i will do solat istikharah ..
i wan't to see..
whether he's da correct men or not..
i have to..

ya allah berilah petunjuk..
aku sangat takut.
kalau aku tolak.. takut tu sememang jodoh terakhir..
kalau aku accept..
takut tersalah pilih..
hanya allah shj yg dapat memberi petunjuk..
sabarlah hati..
x payah ikutkan sangat perasaan..
i know u r scared now..
because of the sentence dat he'd mention..
awak sudi ker kalau saya pinang awak??

mmg aku terdiam sejenak..
1st time..
but i can see dia betul2 dah bersedia.
but me???

argghhhhhh....
cemaner nie...