why is it happen to me?

should i ask dat??..
am i wrong??
what should i do?
why..why..why?..

i don't understand..
i don't even know how to explain..
am i damn cruel..
hurtin people..
let people hurt bcoz of me..
i don't mean dat..

ya allah.. show me the way..
so dat i can have a real feel on someone..

not even me..
but other side oso feel like wht i feel on him..
Please..
i do tired of this..
i do tired ..
tired..

i'm stuck in da way dat i created..
i'm lost?.. or.. i over walk n explore?