How??

Can i Be Strong?..
Can dis RelatiOnship standing still?
hah..
What shOuld I do??

Just noW mama Asking about married..
She still regret, and mad on what i had done to dat guy..

it seem's like she still like dat man..
She said, like dis..

Look At u..
all ur frends were married..
got kids..
wht bout u?
how long to wait?..
who dat u wait for?
until when..
u almost 30..
next yr only turn 30th.. u want to become an ANDARTU?..
hah.. sentapp..

i don't know wht u thinking about..
dat guy already suit for u..
u just reject him like dat n choose someone which is more youngest than u..
just want to start life n career..
wht r u trying to do oso i do no!!
i don't understand u at all!!

huh.. my mum really stress with me..
pity her..

me?.. i just listen silently..
luckily my student came..
so got excuses to leave ..

huh.. but how far dat i leave, dis matter is still keep cathing me wherever i go..
it's always be in my mind..

and me..
confuse n scaring my self..

scared to ask him about us..
scared to force so much on him..
bcoz he oso said dat he is trying to tell his parent bout me..
bout our marriage..

can he success on it?
can his parent accept me ?
can my parent accept him?

huh..
tired of thinking..

i'm not regret with wht i done..
bcoz i really cannot accept da guy dat i don't love..
is it false to reject dat guy?

i don't think so..
it is my future..
i can chose whoever i want to be my husband..
am i correct..?
i think so.. (need to answer my self)

i still keep on hope dat me in Zaim can go more further..
coz.. i want to build a family with him..
and he oso said so..
i hope it will happen..
THIS YEAR..............