Wednesday, January 29, 2014



bila mana kamu memuji perempuan lain kt depan sy...
rasa cemburu terus mencucuk..
tapi x tunjuk pun.. just made like a cool..
maybe u r so honest..
telling me the truth about other girls..
so I take it easy.. maybe all guys like dat..

if u know how much I love u..
everyday I stalk ur fb..
everyday.. I want to meet u
everyday.. I want u to call me..
everyday.. I want to hear ur voice
everyday . I want u to start text me.. so dat I know u are missing me also..

but..
Everytime I stalk ur FB, I saw ur commented to other girls wall..
and what I do.. I stalk the girl wall also to investigate who is she dat made u so interested oh her..
as usual the page is blocking for unknown...
Its hurt me.. when u are repeating commented on her's..
I try to think positive..
"well..maybe she just ur friends.."
but.. I can't.. in FB both of u are commenting together.. how about in fon?(wsup/wechat/or even in your fb msg box?)
huh.. I don't believe dat u r not contacted thru fon..
and I hate to check ur fon actually eventhough I really want to make it when u r not around..
because u always checked mine.. n sometime blame me cuz u've seen there are other guys chattin with me..

The most I hate is when u return my question with the high compliment of the girls u r chatting with.
when I ask.. u mention she is your old frens at kampong.. im fine with dat..
But y u want to say to me she is beautiful.. and really2 beautiful actually.. why??
it seem like u r regret cuz having me not her..
and u r hoping dat u will get her 1 day...
dats is what  I think when I'm silent..
I won't say yes.. n I won't say no..  cuz I don't know wht to say when u talk bout her to me..
silent is better.. eventhough inside it so irritating.

Everyday I want to meet you..
I'm happy when u r next to me..
I feel like u r save with me..
u r not fulfill ur time with other gurl..
yes I'm paranoid with my self..
I really love u..
But soon.. we will not frequently meet again..
this Friday u will back to kampong again.. and straight to Pontian Johor for ur new work..
Deep in my heart I don't want to let u go..
but if u r not goin.. how can u work..??. how can u save money for our marriage that we had planned..
Very nice planning of me
But....... not sure will it be possible or not..
nevermind just pray..

Everyday I want you to call me..
everynite.. cuz u started it first..
u teach me to miss u..
to hear ur voice before sleep..
it's been a year...
now I'm pampered with dat..
I want u to call me everynite..

unfortunately.. started dis year.. u said... u can't call me anymore..
bcoz.. there is no more free charge by digi to call me..
so.. u cannot call me as usual..
quit sad..
I oso cannot call u too long.. cuz I'm line user..
the cost stickly higher...
so I learn...
i learn to accept it.. to not listen to ur voice before sleep..
as long as we still can using msg/wsup/wechat..
as long as i feel u r close to me..

but da most made me cry deep in my heart..
when I'm trying to chat n call u..
it's not even a minute..
u said u r tired..
u feeling so dizzy..becoz of many reasons..
so i have to hang up.. for u to take rest n sleep
eventhough that time i really want to talk to u..
then i oso sleep early.. bcoz.. there is nothing for me to wait for..
i don't care about other people who sent me a text..
or call me to talk..
they r nothing to me..
i only want u..
yes I'm cruel to others..
cuz I'm blind with my love..

i wake up early in the morning..
1st thing i do is..
see my fon.. see whether u had call me or text me last nite..
I'm happy when i saw it..
it's make my day start with smile ..

unfortunately..
lately..i didn't saw ur text..
so its ok.. its fine.. maybe u had good nite sleep..
I'm glad :)
But.. its really hurt..
when i on FB..
i can see ur happy comment to other girl walls..
what happen??
it not even a minute we talk.. than u say.. u want to sleep..
cuz tired n dizzy..
but one hour later..
u were still active in FB..
that was what i saw..
what about calling..
is it possible u r calling other girl??

i don't know.. but no worry.. whatever u hiding behind me..
allah can see everything..

what i always pray .. i hope i can find a " men" that can leads me to allah..
eventhough in my heart.. i always want you to be the man............







 

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